When I turned 30 I was single.I wanted to make my living in Music.  I wanted to minister to musicians. I wanted to earn a degree in music.  I wanted to provide for my son some of the material things I had missed and I wanted to provide such learning and education for him that he would be able to avoid the mistakes made by me; and his father. I wanted to date.  I longed to be pursued.  I wanted to write a book (published and paid). I wanted to marry a symphony conductor. I wanted to pay off my debts and feel freedom.  I needed a full time job. I wanted to marry a radio personality.  I wanted more kids before the biological clock ceased to tick.  I wanted to be in full time Christian Ministry. How did I do?Well, I opened a music gift store which failed.  I did a stint as volunteer interviewer of musicians for the local radio station.  I took a college class in Music Appreciation.  I sent my son to private school and paid the tuition by teaching music there. I began to date (5 guys).  I felt pursued by two of them.  I wrote volumes in my journal.  I dated a symphony conductor, but he was not one of the two who pursued.  I moved back in with my parents in order to pay off some of my debts.  I beat the streets looking for a full time job and found none.  I worked part time at a radio station, taught piano to 20 students, played piano at church, led the praise ensemble at church, married the night guy from the radio station, gave birth to a daughter, moved to Texas and gave birth to a son.